Ok, Whats Wrong With Love?

I have made many of the same mistakes. Most when intoxicated on cheap champagne and some sort of complicated lifestyle, that I have chosen to follow that week. Best bit of being awkward and youthful. But even I should have known by now, that this certain same mistake is painful and I probably should shudder at the thought and think against it next time. If you're under the impression that I'm alright lately. You'll probably never notice that I'm far from it.

It was a Saturday evening and I received a text message . "If I call for a lift soon will you pick me up" . I didn't think twice about this question, as it was from the lady who I will be thinking about, till the day my body drops and hits the floor. "and we can get take out and listen to death cab". So I did. I drove and met her at the shops. Her recent fad boyfriend escorted her to me. He made this clear he wasn't happy. She had lied to him and said I was upset and wanted to talk. He stood there, with his over sized head, awkwardly formed body and his single large eyebrow that stretched over his forehead, saying his goodbyes. I stood quiet and confident.

We attended a party and then decided to go get our takeout. She told me about her dreams of us. Of us. Yeah. Oh it was pleasant to my ears. At last shes realised. She was flirty and it was contagious. We decided to go to my house to watch a movie and listen to some good music. But unfortunately I am far from being a real gentleman. So when she was in my room flinging clothes off and proving that she can still be passionate towards me, things got more complicated.

I was'nt quite sure on her motives but cheating on him wasn't really the best way to show him you wanted to take your relationship to a new level. As apparently she does now. And now her emotions for me have changed directions once again. What once was us getting out of here and starting new, was now never there.

After a brief break up with her boyfriend they are now back together. Oh lady how you fake it. Are you really that desperate. To want what you have to be real? You don't really like that guy you are making out with, do you? Cause I can see right through you. And I can see that you have sold yourself short.

I wish I could take the pain out of love. But if I did that then maybe this love wouldn't exist. So next time she says she misses me, I have learnt she probably don't.